Getting the call

A year ago today I received that call! After my 7 day bed rest our life returned to a somewhat normal state. I still would get shots in my hips every night at 7 p.m. My parents would come over my mom would give me one shot or some nights it was two. Those shots in the hip were painful to the point where it hurt my mom to give them to me because I would just be cringing. My dad would come over to have desert and watch TV. Of course every waking hour I would think to myself am I pregnant? I was bloated, but it could have been from all the medications. So on August 27, 2008 my morning went like this. The doctors office opens at 6:30 a.m. and I had to be at work at 7:30 so my appointments were usually at 6:45 since my work was like 5 minutes away. So I drive to the doctors so they can draw my blood. Now one would hope they would just run my blood down to their lab and process the results. NO!! They call you! I contemplated going to work that day, but I figured I would just drive home and sit with a blanket over my head waiting. At least at work I would have distraction. After the nurse drew my blood she says, "Now Lindsay where can I call you?" I told her to call Jeffs cell. Jeff and I agreed that he could handle the news better then I could so we wanted them to call him. I then go to work. So I had my blood drawn at 6:45 a.m. and the nurse said they would call between 11:00-12:00 p.m. Are you kidding me? Thats a long wait, but I figured we have waited years for this whats a couple of hours. At work of course I think I was just in a daze all morning reading into every cramp I felt and bloating I saw. The 11:00 hour came and I seriously was shaking and just staring at my computer. I think around 11:20 my cell phone rang and I looked at the number and it was my fertility doctor I was ready to grab my trash can underneath my desk and throw up instead I quickly got up and shut my office door. Without saying Hello our conversation went like this:
Me: Your not supposed to call me
Dr. Werlin: LB (thats was my nickname he gave me) but I wanted to call you
Me: I know but you need to call Jeff
Dr. Werlin: I already talked to Jeff I don't want to talk to him. I want to talk to you
Me: You do
( at this point he puts me on speaker and I hear him counting 1, 2, 3)
Dr. Werlin and all his staff yell: YOUR PREGNANT!!!!
Me: I just cried I put my head down on my desk and just cried. I had no words.
I finally did speak and I just thanked him for everything and he told me not to thank him I did all the hard work. I told him if it wasn't for him I wouldn't be hearing those words.
I quickly got my purse and opened my office door and left to go meet Jeff for lunch in Lake Forest. We had decided to meet for lunch no matter the outcome. I drove in a complete fog. As soon as I saw Jeff I just ran up to him gave him a huge hug and said Your going to be a Daddy!!!
We were just so excited that whole day and night. It was such a wonderful day!
I still had to get blood drawn 3 more times they like to make sure the numbers are doubling each time. The shots in my hips continued until I was 12 weeks pregnant. We found out it was twins around the middle of September, 2008. That is definetely one phone call I will never forget! And now its so wonderful as I type this to look up and see our two little miracles here. Ahhh:)

Pics of the girls

See Mom I can sit!


Ashlyn staring at Jillian in their Jumperoo


Ashlyns turn in the Jumperoo


This was Jeffs idea to bring the girls in bed with me so I could get a little more sleep. Yeah that didn't happen!


I'm so pretty!


Holding my head up so good!


Trying to get the girls to notice each other and interact


Ashlyn laughing at Daddy





Jillian FINALLY asleep. This girl can go all day without sleeping and if she does its like for 20 minutes


The girls with their cousins! Lauren is holding Jillian and Katelyn is holding Ashlyn. So cute!

August 16, 2008

A year ago today Jeff and I were making babies:) On August 13, 2008 I had my egg retrieval done and we had a 3 day transfer. We went down to the Infertility Surgical Center in Irvine on Saturday morning, August 16, 2008 and they sent us back into this little room to get dressed into our attire. Once we were ready they wheeled me into the surgical room and Jeff followed. This was exciting for us because Jeff got to be in the room with me. Basically a cathetar is placed in me and then a long needle is placed into the cathetar which holds the embroyos. On a monitor Jeff and I got to watch as the embroyos were placed inside. I can still picture all of it in my head and it is just amazing. After the procedure they wheeled us back into our little room where we got ready and I laid on the bed for an hour. From there I had to lay flat the whole way home. For the next seven days I had to lay in bed flat couldn't even sit up only to eat. I was only able to get up to go to the bathroom and thats it. No shower no nothing! It was really only supposed to be 5 days, but Jeff insisited I lay there another 2. I think he liked the fact that I couldn't move and he could do anything in the house. We can't believe its been a year and now here we are holding our little ones:)

Here is Jeff in his attire! He was so excited!


Here I am nothing flattering about it. A hospital gown and a hair net thing.


Were ready to be parents:)


Here are the 3 embroyos that were placed in me. So crazy to think one of them is Ashlyn and one of them is Jillian. They both wanted to go through this life together and we couldn't be more blessed.

Looking Back Part 2

Its crazy when I think back to last August it was the longest month for Jeff and I. In July of 2008 the medications arrived in a large box by mail from a pharmacy in Arizona.

It all began with these pills. Yes birth control pills. I had to end up taking these for 2 months its usually a month, but we needed a vacation so we planned taking the medications around our yearly vacation.


Here we are in Bass Lake its actually here at Bass Lake that the shots began for invitro.


And heres what was all in the box. It was so overwhelming that I had to go through and seperate what I needed at first and then hide what I needed later on. Once doing that it wasn't bad at all. It was lots of needles, alcohol swabs, bruises, but most importantly so worth it.

Looking Back....

Last year at this time I started the IVF meds and it seemed like time was standing still. There were many tears that lead up to this point and I wanted to share some lyrics of a song that I would listen to every night when I got home from work. It made me realize that I had an amazing husband holding me and getting me through this. This month will be filled with a couple of blogs of how we got where we are today and that we are so blessed to have these two amazing girls in our life.

When The Rain Comes

When the rain comes it seems that everyone has
gone away
When the night falls you wonder if you shouldn't
find someplace
To run and hide
Escape the pain
But hiding's such a lonely thing to do
I can't stop the rain
From falling down on you again
I can't stop the rain
But I will hold you 'til it goes away
When the rain comes
you blame it on the things that
you have done
When the storm fades
you know that rain must fall
on everyone
Rest awhile
it'll be alright
No one loves you like I do
When the rain comes
I will hold you